Well once again I had forgotten I had this account. I am now pregnant and due in december. I am hoping that I have a girl but I wouldn’t mind a son. We already got names picked out for both. I think I might start to post stuff on here more as well
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The voice laughed a little at my speechlessness. Trevor leant down next to me just trying to figure out how I really couldn’t tell I was different. In all big cities they tested the babies at birth to make sure that no one was birthing a half-breed. “Lain you must have noticed anything that a human couldn’t do and you could?” I could see the gentle look to his eyes but they didn’t know how to comfort me. I shook my head no. I was a plain person before all of this happened. To be honest I was one of the weakest people growing up. All the other kids could do everything better then me. My stomach turned some thinking of killing all those people. My mother and siblings. Was she really my mother? I knew they killed the children who weren’t human at birth.
Growing up no one ever thought much of it. Now as I was on the other end I felt so much guilt for living while others died. The voice kind of sounded like a faint whisper as it spoke to me this time. “We were hidden…it cost them their lives.” Who was the them it spoke of? Was it my birth parents? I knew the woman I called mother was a human. As were my three sisters. “Your name is Trevor Kassidy and you said you hadn’t seen one like me in over a hundred years. How old are you then? What does the silver markings in white fur mean?” He gave me a faint smile as grabbing my hand. To be honest I really didn’t want to move. My body did as he asked without even consenting me. That seemed to be something that was starting to reoccur often. Trevor walked me to a cliff side far enough away the hunters couldn’t get to us. “Take a good look at what you did. This is something you will never be able to change. If you try to refuse who you are….this will happen again. Your hunger will be all you know. Then you truly will become a beast with human looking flesh.”
I started to ball like a child just falling to my knees. I had truly destroyed the city I’d know as my home. The smell of the rotten flesh still filled the cliff sides. I leant over the edge throwing up. My stomach felt like I’d been hit by a train. Accepting what I was going to be was going to be so hard. It was something that I might never be able to accept. Trevor said I would kill again but how did he know? Did he have the same problem when he awoken? Taking a deep breathe I forced myself to stand. There was something in me that said run, yet at the same time it said stay with him. “You never answered me Trevor. How old are you really?” He glanced over at me for a moment then to the sky. “I am well over three thousand years old.” His stare came back to me as if trying to see if it phased me any. All I could think is how many horrors has he seen. Humans had evolved so much yet fell so far as well.
I remember the stories of how things would create smog and pollution. He actually lived through these times. I looked down for a moment then back to him. How could you express yourself when you didn’t really understand anything? “You’ve lived through all the technological changes in human and non-human history. How is it you’ve lived so long?” He placed a hand on my head then started to turn to walk away. “Simple I am what you called one of the damned ones. No matter what it seems I just can’t die. I even tried to kill myself many times. No one knows why this occurs in some of us non-humans.” I started to follow him down a path that was covered with beautiful blue vines. I’d never seen anything like them in my life. Along side the rock edges were blood red flowers. It almost looked like they could bleed with just a simple touch to their petals. I leant down to inhale the perfume but Trevor stopped me. “These are dangerous. Humans and in-humans can’t even smell these or else they will be poisoned. If they are crushed into a fine paste they can even be used for medicine with another plant.” I gave a faint smile to thank him.
He walked me to a small house about three miles from where I had awoken. “From here on out little one you will be without me. I need to go tend to things. Remember to feed on wild animals or else you will lose control once more.” He was actually leaving me here. How was I suppose to even interact with people? I was still covered in blood. He looked back at me once more as then taking off into a swift run, seconds passed as a huge black fox stood not far from me. He must have been at least eight feet tall. I was breathless for a moment at his beauty. His striking gold eyes just looked through me once more. Then like a flash he was gone. I needed to get this blood off my flesh. With a sadness of being alone I walked into the small house. Inside it smelt like fresh roses. I walked through the living area to find a bedroom with a bathe. Lucky for me there was actually clothing here. This wasn’t something I would normally wear but I think the time for being picky was gone. I looked in the mirror as trying not to be sickened by my appearance. I was in tight red leather pants with knee length leather boots. My shirt was a tight black leather like corset that had a silky fabric under it.
I glanced to my hair to see it was turning snow white. My blonde hair was fading away. How many more changes were going to happen to me before this was all over? Slowly this was all starting to sink in even more that I had to change. I stared in the mirror at my eyes even they were changing from my green to a striking silver. Did this all have to do with my beast form? Letting out a breathe I looked around the house. I wanted to explore everything just in case of needing to escape. For a few hours I sat in the living room thinking about the hunters. They wouldn’t give up so easy. I remembered watching on the screens how they hunted one person for almost a week. I grabbed a bag from under a small table. It would hold more then enough for now. I grabbed several clothes looking around and grabbed what looked like a little purse decoration. In reality it was a sword that was made from light. It was weird to imagine how many things I could possible carry that were actually dangerous. As the bag was filled I looked back once more. This was the end of who I once had been.
The sky was dark with a cold wind blowing as sending chills down my spine. This was truly something terrifying but at the same time I felt almost free. The first steps seemed to be the hardest but once I was far from the house it was more simple. The trees seemed to know that I was new to this world. I walked for what felt like days. To be honest I wasn’t paying attention to night and day. I wanted to gain as much distance from there as possible. Stopping I felt my stomach growling. I couldn’t just settle this with some bread and fruit. It was the flesh of another living creature I was hungry for. There was a small dear that was grazing in the distance. My body moved into the brush like it was always a natural killer. I waited till it wasn’t looking then lunged at it. That is when my head collided with another person. Thankfully we did kill the dear. A young man sat there looking at the dear then me. He smelt the air then backed away a little from me. “Um…we can share if you like?” He crawled over a little as smelling me once more. Then he tore into the dear. I couldn’t stop from doing so as well. I was starving for the meat.
The young man seemed to watch my every movement. It was like he was scared of me yet he was also debating something. I finished what I wanted as getting something to clean the blood from me. He watched as I got cleaned up. His ruby red eyes were so pretty like a gem you would want to preserve. I smiled a little at him as starting to walk off. He sat there for a few moments then seemed to follow me. I turned once as he hid behind a giant rock. Letting out a sigh I continued to walk as if he wasn’t there. I could smell fresh cooked food. I must be near a city again. Then a thought came to me…the closest city was over five hundred miles away. It was strange since more cities were much closer then that. Stopping on the edge of a road I thought about the scanners. I knew they would allow a non-human in the city. They had to wear a special band on their arms. I hated the thought of being singled out. The young boy walked up behind me as gently grabbing my hair smelling it. “Your not mean?” I turned and smiled to him. “I just awoken not too long ago. I didn’t even know I was in-human. It is all still a shock to me.” He sat down next to me smiling. It was like a little kid who was lost and finally found. “My name is Bren. I don’t have a last name since I named myself. I was left for dead at three in the woods.” I leant over and touched his face. I wondered what kind of in-human he was but decided not to ask. “If you like I can give you my last name.” The boy sat up like a child in a candy store allowed to get what ever their hearts desired.
The hunger was becoming uncontrollable . It felt like I’d not eaten in almost a week. The smell of rotten flesh lingered all around. There was a small voice in my head telling me it wasn’t wrong. I knew better but it was so hard not to listen to it. My heart ached as I knew my humanity was drifting further away. As I rose from the blood covered dirt, there was an eerie howl to the wind. It sang a sad song for the lives lost. I looked to my feet to see a child. Their face was torn half apart as if scrap meat for a dog to feast upon. The voice told me to move as a command. Inventively I listened to every word that it spoke.
I felt weak but as I saw a wild rabbit my hunger took over once more. Instinct kicked in as I lunged at the poor creature. Tearing the flesh apart I could feel the blood gushing down my throat. It was like nothing I could even explain. What was wrong with me? I was acting like a wild beast. The voice laughed a little at me. “Poor child it is alright. You are just hungry. Eat and be content.” How could I be content knowing the way I was acting. I finished the rabbit off as standing up I heard voices. They yelled over here. Then I heard them yell there is the monster. “Monster….who was the monster?” I was confused as seeing the lights flickering towards me. The voice screamed run to me.
Why did I need to run? I was no monster. “Run you damn woman! Before we are killed.” A loud ear shattering boom crossed my left side. It looked like a man was firing some kind of weapon at me. Then I realized they were trying to kill me. I started to run as hearing the people yelling follow it. What had I done? I don’t remember anything other then waking up in the bodies. Tears fell from my eyes as I fell down the side of a cliff. I managed to grip on a jagged edge as one of the people fired down at me. A sharp pain flowed through my body as losing my grip. Why? That was all I could think of as falling.
Maybe you shouldn’t have eaten all those people. What do you mean? I didn’t eat any people. A laughter echo’d as I woke up. The fall had knocked me out. A man stood over me with a smirk to his lips. “You really are just a child. A wild one at that. Too bad you never knew since living with humans.” He must be crazy but in the back of my mind it made some sense. “My name is Trevor Kassidy. You little one are lucky to even be alive. Humans don’t take likely to finding an in-human in their ranks. Must of been hard awaking.” Slowly I sat up to see my wounds were gone. How was this possible? I just wanted to go back home. “My name is Lain Mae. What the hell are you talking about? I am not an in-human….you must have lost your mind.” Trevor laughed a little more as leaning down to my eye level. His eyes were a striking gold that could see straight through your soul. “You really are naive little Lain. You turned into a wolf about ten feet tall. I heard the howls from here. To be honest I haven’t seen one like you in over a hundred years. The silver markings in your white fur was gorgeous.”
The voice in my head laughed a little. “See you are no longer the little innocent child. You are a killer.” Tears started to fall from my eyes as his hand stroked some away. This was too much for me. I didn’t understand how I could be one of those creatures. They test everyone in the city to make sure they aren’t a beast at birth. How could they have missed me?
Update: Well some ass hole next store tried to get my boyfriend arrested. The jerk had literally threw his mother out and we took her in. She used us and gave our stuff over to him. She also thought since I smoke it was alright to help herself to my tubes and tobacco. which pissed me off like hell. She smoked all my shit then thought it was still alright when I got more to just use it. After a while she got the hint of me being pissed off.
She had someone she knew buy her tubes and tobacco. Which was nice but I had a huge bag when she came and it was now just down to the fucking dust in there. Also I might have to stay where I am living. It sucks majorly….I don’t like paying this much for rent. I am happy though since she is out. Also my bf is going to college which is really good too. I am really proud of him.
a picture I did with a friend.
Okay with in the last six months many things have changed. I am no longer with my Ex-girlfriend. For any who don’t know I am bisexual. Now that is out of the way I will continue the update. I am in another relationship with a wonderful guy named Warren. He is so sweet and kind to me. I’ve finally got an income -.- although very little it is enough to live off of.
My doctors still haven’t figured out why I am having so many problems that resemble a pregnancy. Honestly I think they don’t want to deal with me. I wouldn’t want to deal with my health problems. I’m happy that I’ve been getting even more into my art.
Okay I had lost my thought since I am watching a movie with my bf while typing on here. So I will just leave it as this and wish you all a good day
another one of the things I posted to my DA account for any who wonder. it is www.neshemadarkangel.deviantart.com